Sep
I really should stop venting about the negatives of ttc, but this week has just got to me. 4 pregnancy announcements this week alone! I really do feel like my heart has been ripped out at the moment, I also feel guilty for feeling this way too.
I’m extremely happy for those that have conceived, they all in their individual way deserve the blessing they have received.
I felt the pain in my heart ache tonight when I got the news of a close friend of mine. I just wish I knew of a way to cease obsessing so much. I already know that it doesn't do any good to stress over it. After 2 years it's beginning to become unbearable.
I either have to isolate myself from everyone or just give up and start taking birth control when I'll know there will be no chance of it happening and then just MAYBE I might be able to stop obsessing so much. It just feels like I'm going out of my mind.
Thank you all for listening/reading I have no one else to talk about this with, and I already appreciate all your answers.
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Im so sorry you feel that way its soo hard and i totally comprehend. My heart goes out to you. I’ve only been trying for 8 months and its hard on me I cant envision for those who have been trying for years. Regardless of whether you have children already or not the longing and need is there, maybe more so because u know the joys that you are trying for.
Good;luck with everything and I will keeping all of you lovely TTC ladies in my thoughts xox
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I can't have kids and many of my friends are new parents or expecting kids. Don't begrudge them their happiness just go on with your life and enjoy the things they might be missing out on (long lazy mornings in bed, poop free outings, romantic meals - the list is endless!) When you start enjoying what you do have and stop obsessing over what you don't you might find that things will happen in the conception area for you too!
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god works in myserious ways i guess.
me and hubby were told this day at a 6 wks scan that he has a chromosone problem and even though we’ve found it easy to conceive,if we dont lose them to miscarriage(which has happened twice this year) then they will be badly disabled or die after birth.
life is very hard at times!!
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Yeah, everybody does. It's perfectly normal. I wouldn't advocate giving up or going back on birth control. It's just going to delay it more and more.. I hope you get your tiny bundle of joy soon! **baby dust**
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***Sending babydust your way hun***
chin up 
you will get there eventually xx
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yes, my dad who was my whole family to me died.
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Oh god its like i wrote it myself!!! I know how you feel… its really hard when everyone IS pregnant, getting pregnant and giving birth and not one sniff of a BFP for me! babies babies babies everywhere!!! u do feel like hiding away and cryin… or screaming and screaming!! I feel so guilty when i dont go see my 10day old nephew but it hurts cos he is so god damn adorable its unbearable lol. at least i now have a reason for spending hours in the baby section in the supermarket…
I wish i knew how to halt obsessing. Just found out DH has obstructive azoospermia and have to have ICSI and in for another 2 year wait on top of the 2 years we have been tryin. God its hard… But just have to hold my head up n spoil my nephew for now
Take care.. Hope u get a wee blessing soon
**Babydust**
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heya hunni i feel exactly the same.
i have been tryin for number 1 for 9 months, and all i see are pregnant women and BFP announcments, im so happy 4 them but i too feel guilty for wishing it was me.
i only tlk about these things on here as no1 knows we’re trying (the last thing i want are people asking me if im pregnant when im not even sure i can be)
just so hard that each month im bk 2 square 1, and having a 38 day cycle means i have 3weeks to wait to my fertile days. 
all i can state is i hope it happens for us soon and please dont give up xxx
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I can relate though I can't understand absolutely as I’ve not been trying for 2 years. In the last 3 years my BIL has had 3 children with different moms, cousin in law just had baby at 21 not knowing who the dad is, other cousin in law just had abortion at 19.
Here I am wanting a child and can't.
It isn't fair and I don't comprehend why it works this way.
Maybe we can't get pregnant right now because there's special babies who aren't ready to be conceived yet.
Hang in there! I know it's hard and you can't think about anything else and hearing everyone else's news is a slap in the face.
Sending lots of baby baby dust your way!!!
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I know how you feel exactly. I have had so many people that are close to me get pregnant while we’ve been ttc. This is our 26th month ttc. A few of these people had “accident” babies to top it off. A real hard thing to deal with is I recently found out that 2 of these people (1 is my cousin) are now expecting their 2nd babies and I’ve yet to have my first!!! It is so hard at times. I’ve had 2 cousins, 6 friends, my doctor, my nurse, my boss's daughter all conceived within the last 12 months. Most didn't try longer than 3 months and one was on the depo shot. Crazy!!! It is so hard but I get through knowing that soon everyone will be celebrating my pregnancy and baby. I have total faith in God that it will happen for me. So try to stay positive God is watching how you react to everyone else's joy. It is ok to be sad but remember to not let it get the ideal of you. Ideal wishes!!!!